This is a journal entry from March 21, 2010
I am slowly learning to focus on the present. It's still very natural to be obsessing about what I need to do next, but I can do anything and remain in the present moment.
I am part of the vast energy field of life that surrounds me. God is omnipresent (here and now), omniscient (all intelligence and knowledge that exists), omnipotent (all the power of the universe). My church often uses the phrase that there is only One Power and One Presence in the universe. Maybe it should be revised to be there is only One Power, one One Intelligence and One Presence in the universe. My intelligence contributes to the infinite intelligence of God, and that infinite intelligence is available to me now. My power/strength/enthusiasm contribute to God's omnipotence, and it is available to me now. God is Love. Love is driven to express.
I want to find some friends to play with. I want to play and pretend and make believe. I think it's actually key to discovering myself.
Thinking of Rex Harley as a fictional character, what adventures might he get into? Zero-G sex aboard the Sex Star, the orbiting adult playground. Planting a small vegetable garden or a flower garden. Training to be a sex guru. Owning a porn studio. Being an activist for sexual freedom. Exploring the world. Envisioning an ideal Utopian world. Rescuing non-consensual sex slaves. Setting up an agency for voluntary sex slavery. Being minister in a church where no topics are off limits. Owning a clothing optional resort. Living in a clothing optional community. Becoming part of a communal living arrangement, community or "frat" house.
What about playing? Checkers, chess, poker craps, monopoly, bondage, S&M, Dominoes, bowling, underwear skating.