Sunday, March 30, 2008

Sexual Spirituality

This is a journal entry from Sunday 30 March, 2008.

I am sexually expressive. It's a core aspect of who I am. But I also am a spiritual being seeking enlightenment. So do I abandon one part of me in manifesting another? I can't imagine how. I wouldn't be whole. So my life's work has become finding how these two aspects of myself coexist within me.

So, aside from helping men get their rocks off, one of the goals of my website is to reach the men who are looking in shame for sexual images on the Internet and helping them embrace themselves as sexual beings as well as spiritual. I want them to experience their God given sexual pleasure. I want them to learn that God doesn't judge them and that they have permission to completely abandon themselves to pleasure during sex and that this can be an avenue to experience God.

I try to do this by example – sharing my sexual ecstasy on the Internet for others to enjoy. In so doing, I want to set up a cycle of sexual energy between me and those watching me. I want us to have simultaneous orgasms across time and space so that we are all connected. I even watch my videos and get off with myself. How sexual is that?

Universal Substance and Relaxation

This is a journal entry from Sunday 30 March, 2008.

The Unity calendar on my wall at the office has a quote about living in a garden of substance. The key for me is that we grow our lives given this substance through our thoughts. The other point is that we are creating our lives all the time whether we are conscious of it or not.

Today, I am carrying a lot of tension. I would like to start growing some relaxation. I am feeling tense which is taking away my ability to enjoy keeping up with my life. I've got a massage scheduled for today. Instead of trying to spend the entire day in relaxation, I want to find a way to relax while living my life – in the midst of it.