Friday, June 12, 2009

May Insights

  • I abandon my power when I falsely believe that I can convince myself to do something. That's because in doing that, I give responsibility to something that doesn't exist instead of to myself.
  • If I'm fighting myself, I'm wasting time fighting an illusion. I always have the power to do what I truly want to do.
  • Always planning is robbing me of my power, always focusing on the next thing instead of what I need now.
  • Whatever I'm feeling, I'm doing this to myself.
  • It's time to speak FROM who I am rather than AT it.
  • I am an unfolding wizard of sex, spirituality and technology.
  • Everything that is supposed to be done today will be done.
  • Resistance is funny. Who am I resisting??
  • Look for A) What helps me feel in control and B) What brings me enthusiasm.
  • Keep the end goal in mind: Supporting myself spreading the Rex Harley message.
  • Faith: Everything is exactly the way it is supposed to be.
  • The tension I feel comes from trying to force myself to do something that exposes a believe that there is a "myself" that I can force to do my bidding that is separate from "me" and is thus uncontrollable. When I realize there is only me, I recover my power.
  • I believe everyone inherently has the divine ability to create their lives in conjunction with the creative power of the universe that I know as God. I believe we use the Power of the Universe all the time. but it's so effortless that we don't realize we're doing it and wind up creating trouble for ourselves.
  • I want to have a job where I don't have to pretend to be asexual, or work in an environment where we pretend sex doesn't exist. I want to work where the people won't care that I'm a nudist and an exhibitionist who posts his video clips on XTube. I dream of working in a more laid back atmosphere where I don't feel the need to continuously prove myself, where I can focus on the quality of my work instead of the quantity
  • On a day to day basis, I feel tightly controlled - binding myself because of fear. That's why I enjoy bondage. When I'm tied up and unable to move, I am able to relax because I no longer need to expend the energy to control myself. If fear is bondage, then bondage is freedom.
  • Fear looks like my father, forever unhappy with me and pushing me to be different than I am. Always asking me what I learned in school today while I never know how to summarize a day's learning into a single answer. Instead I answer "I don't know," making him mad at me and scaring me to death.

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