Relax. Right now, everything is OK just the way it is

How can I believe that everything is going to be alright?

• I believe the underlying principle that brought life into existence will continue.
• While I believe in free will, I also believe that there is a divine plan for my life - for everyone's life.
• I believe we are naturally drawn to our path, but that ego leads us off the path. I feel driven by ego and off the path.
• I believe the only part of myself that feels threatened by life is my ego. It's what feels disrespected in traffic. It is what responds to anger with anger.
• I believe I can take it down a notch. Everything is not critical. Everything is OK just the way it is. Life is a transition. Nothing remains the same.

Up until this point, my life has felt heavy. Life has felt jagged and unsafe - compared to having all my needs met as a child. I have abhorred expressing emotion, but the only emotions I can suppress are happy ones. So I often experience fear, anger and sadness.
I want to believe this is not my natural state, but that it is something I can release to uncover myself. I want to believe that I can experience life and feel safe and express joy.

• I am not my thoughts. I am not my ego.
• Only my ego feels overwhelmed.
• Only my ego feels threatened.
• Only my ego feels disrespected.
• Only my ego feels fear.
• Only my ego feels anger.

My primary concern is letting go of this stress and knowing that everything is OK just the way it is.
Just because everything is OK doesn't mean that I have to stop. I continue stepping forward and with each step, it's still OK.
Step 1: Learn to be comfortable expressing happiness and excitement.

June Insights

• I am a follower, not a leader.
• I don't want to hide that I am a nudist and exhibitionist.
• I am looking for the freedom to act instead of trying to motivate myself.
• Live life as if utopia was already here.
• I want to be part of a close knit extended family exploring the universe.
• I can do software. I can do sex. I can continue my education forever. I can teach others what I've learned. I can provide a space and place for people to grow.
• Listen to the quiet part of yourself that knows.
• Inner Duality: Get off your own back. Stop trying to motivate yourself by harassing yourself with your thoughts. Who are you talking to? The one who is speaking. There is only one of you. Choose to act or not to act, but respect your own decision.
• I am aware of an abundant universe that provides for all my needs. I intuitively know how to tap that abundance. I'm continuously taping the universal abundance so that I can thrive and prosper and help others.
• I've developed the habit of seeing time as a limited resource. There are only so many hours in a day. I tend to forget that time is a continuous flow. There's another delivery tomorrow.
• Instead of arguing with myself, make a choice.
• I create my own state of mind. Take the time to learn how this works.
• Through the power of faith, I am able to stop resisting and surrender to the flow of life.
• We live in a never ending, continuously generated flow of time. We are free to experience it however we choose. There is no such thing as "spending time," because time is NOT a finite resource.
• I heard this in church: Nothing real can be threatened. Nothing unreal exists.
• Faith is not about religion, but about the nature of existence. Atheists have faith that God does not exist. I have faith that more will be revealed, that whatever I learn will grow my faith and not destroy it.
• I'm OK just the way I am. I can trust myself.
• I forget myself today as I embrace my freedom and exercise my faith to accept whatever happens and flow with life.
• I can trust myself to take down my defenses and relax. I'm OK the way I am.
• When I "forget myself," I step forward past my thoughts to the front of my body. Usually there is a separation of thoughts between my world and me. When I forget myself - I move past that - I step forward and trust myself to be myself.

May Insights

• I abandon my power when I falsely believe that I can convince myself to do something. That's because in doing that, I give responsibility to something that doesn't exist instead of to myself.
• If I'm fighting myself, I'm wasting time fighting an illusion. I always have the power to do what I truly want to do.
• Always planning is robbing me of my power, always focusing on the next thing instead of what I need now.
• Whatever I'm feeling, I'm doing this to myself.
• It's time to speak FROM who I am rather than AT it.
• I am an unfolding wizard of sex, spirituality and technology.
• Everything that is supposed to be done today will be done.
• Resistance is funny. Who am I resisting??
• Look for A) What helps me feel in control and B) What brings me enthusiasm.
• Keep the end goal in mind: Supporting myself spreading the Rex Harley message.
• Faith: Everything is exactly the way it is supposed to be.
• The tension I feel comes from trying to force myself to do something that exposes a believe that there is a "myself" that I can force to do my bidding that is separate from "me" and is thus uncontrollable. When I realize there is only me, I recover my power.
• I believe everyone inherently has the divine ability to create their lives in conjunction with the creative power of the universe that I know as God. I believe we use the Power of the Universe all the time. but it's so effortless that we don't realize we're doing it and wind up creating trouble for ourselves.
• I want to have a job where I don't have to pretend to be asexual, or work in an environment where we pretend sex doesn't exist. I want to work where the people won't care that I'm a nudist and an exhibitionist who posts his video clips on XTube. I dream of working in a more laid back atmosphere where I don't feel the need to continuously prove myself, where I can focus on the quality of my work instead of the quantity
• On a day to day basis, I feel tightly controlled - binding myself because of fear. That's why I enjoy bondage. When I'm tied up and unable to move, I am able to relax because I no longer need to expend the energy to control myself. If fear is bondage, then bondage is freedom.
• Fear looks like my father, forever unhappy with me and pushing me to be different than I am. Always asking me what I learned in school today while I never know how to summarize a day's learning into a single answer. Instead I answer "I don't know," making him mad at me and scaring me to death.