This is a journal entry from Tuesday 3/12/13
I'm working on planning my sabbatical. While I intend to do some exploration of my career desires, I want it to be active. I have no interest in sitting and wracking my brain. I want movement. In the end, I want to be able to generate ideas I can explore and then try out those ideas looking for a fit.
I recognize that I have to go all in for this to work. I want to be a sex educator and advocate, but I can't do that effectively unless people know me as a sex educator and advocate. I'm not willing to be known that way. I'm looking for that fine line of disclosure that I can share with people at church. When I can offer a sex class at church, then I will have found the balance I want.
This is a journal entry from Saturday 3/16/13
What do I want in this moment? Not some time in the future, but right now? I have everything I could want.
I want to cut my hair and shower. Then I want to go into the woods and touch myself.
I feel tired, but I want to live.