This is a journal entry from Friday 16 May, 2008.
When I think of being in a Hot Desert Knights movie, my heart races and I get butterflies in my stomach. That makes me think I'd end up as a bottom. That's fine by me, but tops are harder to find and I might have better odds of being in a movie if I could top.
I've had no trouble getting hard for the camera when it's handled by my partner. If I'm in the studio with cameramen and a director and others, can I get hard?
Maybe I could do a simulation. Lonestar is next weekend. If I could get a few people to watch my partner filming me masturbating, it could be a good enough simulation of being in a professional film studio.