Power of Meditation

These days, when something makes me angry, I don't attach with it. It passes in a few minutes instead of a few hours or days. I find it easier to do things that would normally make me procrastinate or spend time feeling overwhelmed. Patience is productive.

I think most of my earlier procrastination was actually coming from impatience. Every task seemed like it would take too much time. Now I stop trying to fit so much into my day, but I still move forward.

I finally found a tool that feeds and nourishes my soul. I've been meditating regularly. While I meditate, I train myself to focus on being present in the here and now. I let go of past and future. I become aware of the quiet eternal part of myself that isn't rushed. The more I get in touch with that part of myself, the less my world is rocked by whatever happens. When I am upset, it becomes a tool to help me get in better connection with that quiet part of my soul.

Slowly I begin to believe there's nothing I can't handle.

My Truth - Updated 13 February 2009

Today, I am happy and relaxed, confident and powerful.

Today, I fulfill my core mission and live my divine purpose.

Today, I quiet my mind and unleash my power in support of my core mission.

Today, my partner and I have an unconditional and ever deepening love for each other and our intimacy grows every day.

Today, I am completely safe being totally open and honest with my thoughts and feelings. I am respected and loved for everything that I am.

Today, my life is simple and uncomplicated. I permit my lift to unfold.

Today, I prosperously be myself and live my dreams.

Today, I write my own software products in support of my core mission.

Today, I live as part of a tribe of men who share my values.

September '09 Insights

Instead of trying to figure who I am, how can I let myself be myself?

What I do is not who I am. I am greater than my job and obstacles. My job is a small part of my identity. It can't hurt me.

I affirm that I am already who I want to be, doing what I want to do. I am greater than any labels. I can't be trapped.

I begin here. It's possible to be happy and fulfilled. I don't have to fear death or struggle to live. I can accept circumstances, stop struggling, and give myself what I need.

August '09 Insights

• I believe that the underlying principle that brought life into existence will continue.
• While I believe in free will, I also believe that there is a divine plan for my life - for everyone's life.
• I believe we are naturally drawn to our path, but that ego leads us off the path. I feel driven by ego and off the path.
• I believe the only part of myself that feels threatened by life is my ego. It's what feels disrespected in traffic. It responds to anger with anger.
• I believe I can take it down a notch. Everything is not critical. Everything is OK just the way it is. Life is always in a transition. Nothing remains the same.
• Up until this point, my life has felt heavy. Life has felt jagged and unsafe - compared to having all my needs met as a child. I have abhorred expressing emotion, but the only emotions I can suppress are happy ones. So I only experience fear, anger and sadness. I want to believe this is not my natural state, but that it is something I can release to uncover myself. I want to believe that I can experience life and feel safe and express joy.
• I am not my thoughts. I am not my ego.
• Only my ego feels overwhelmed.
• Only my ego feels threatened.
• Only my ego feels disrespected.
• Only my ego feels fear.
• Only my ego feels anger.
• Polyphasic sleep schedules don't work if you are naturally tense, drink coffee, or have trouble sleeping.
• If I'm not where I want to be today and if I feel hopelessly stuck - I have at least one alternative: Growth. It doesn't matter how I'm earning money as long as I'm growing.
• No matter what happens, it's a vital step in my personal evolution and I will be OK.
  

July '09 Insights

• I want to follow my heart and not give a hell what anyone else thinks about it.
• I can be happy now. I don't have to wait. I can let go of the outcome. I can relax and be myself.
• When criticized, do nothing. The ego wants to self-repair. Instead, allow it to be diminished - Eckhart Tolle
• No matter what appears to be, it is always true that I am free. It always has been and always will be my choice.
• My energy is overflowing. I use that energy to suppress that energy during the work day to do work that I don't want to do. I come home depleted of my energy. Learn to release the energy.
• Know that everything that happens is for a greater good.
• Remember to love someone.
• It's more important to me to be happy than to be right.
• My love is greater than any petty disagreement.
  

Affirmation Of Authority

I have ultimate authority over my life. I choose what I do and what I think. I AM the only one who has the power to cause me to do anything. No one else has that ability over my life.

Since I have authority over my life, I cannot be pushed around by circumstances. Regardless of what happens during the day, I choose how to respond. No one else has that ability over my life.

I can pay attention during the day. I notice when my brow furrows. I am not my thoughts. I can let go of my thoughts and experience my world directly. When I think something that affects me negatively, I know that it is a lie. I have authority over my life.

I am not my feelings. Feelings are not facts. I can act in spite of fear.

I can prepare for tomorrow and I can learn from the past, but I have no power there. The only time I have power over my life is right now. Worry does not support me. I let go of the past. I let go of the future. I focus my power on today.

I have the right to be happy. I have the right to look foolish. I have the right to laugh. I have the right to express myself. I have the right to be emotional. I have the right to take care of myself. I have the right to relax and take it easy. I have the right to unfold.

I am how I see the world. How can I see it better?

This is not an abstract question with a vague answer. I begin by focusing my attention on my sphere of influence. I take time during the day to recognize everything is OK. By recognizing that my experience of the world is within me and focusing my attention on what resonates with good(God) in me.
I am not comfortable at work. I don't feel confident. So I resist it and my tension rises. This job is an exercise to help me learn to relax when I feel uncomfortable.
My goal is to guide my perceptions so that my experience of the world develops a sense of peace and serenity strong enough that I am not rattled by my job. So that I no longer resist and avoid it.