God is an atheist

This sounds like a conflicting statement so I'll try to explain it - hopefully provoking some thought along the way.
The premise for this statement is that God is omnipresent. New thought Christians tend to take this statement literally and restate it as "there is no spot where God is not." We believe that God is present in all of us - indeed in all things. We tend to believe that Christ is "God in us" and that everyone is a reflection of God.
For a while now, I've also been considering that our entire experience of the world occurs within us. Outside of our conscious awareness, blue is just a particular frequency of electromagnetic radiation. It doesn't become blue as we perceive it until we see it with our eyes and our brains react to it. We see a reflection of the world.
What if our ability to experience the world through our inner experience - our consciousness - is actually God in us? What if our inner world with colors and sounds and sensations that only exist within us is a part of God himself/herself/itself? Then you could say that you experience the world through God in us.
If we believe that everyone we meet is also conscious - then each person contains within them this experience of the world within them - that we call God. Then God has his/her/its experience through each of us. If each part contains a reflection of the whole, then each of us is God. If we are all God (not Gods, by the way), then even an atheist is God.
So many of us spend our time trying to see how others are wrong in what they believe about God. Atheists say there is no God, but they certainly have a sense about the great truths that govern our universe. They advance by not naming these as God so that their understanding can grow, but it's just as much a religion as any other. The proof is when some of their number say they are right when all (other) religions are wrong. This close mindedness is the same that they denounce in religious zealots.
Yes, I believe God is an atheist, but he/she/it is also a painter, a Jew, a gymnast, a Christian, a scientist, a Muslim, a jet pilot, a Hindu, a homeless mother, a Buddhist. Look for God in each other as we are the manifestations of God in this world.

Spiritual Sexual Freedom: Empowerment Through Self Acceptance and Authenticity

Porn Prayer

God, we thank you for this beautiful day and for the opportunity to serve you. We ask that you would be with us today as we celebrate your gift of sexuality for all to see. We pray that our gift of sexual exhibition will inspire those who watch to embrace and accept their own sexual desires. We ask that you soften the hearts of those who judge us and help them to see that our unique gift comes from you and through us in our videos. We also ask that you would protect those who are not yet mature from viewing this material.

Industry Research in California

Do you know any sacred intimates? Or anyone in the adult entertainment industry? Or maybe someone who works in a resort/healing center/retreat?

I will be visiting the San Fernando Valley, Palm Springs and LA area starting on October 1. If you know someone who works in the area, please pass their contact information to me or ask if they would be willing to help me with an informational interview. I'm looking for sacred intimates, owners of businesses and performers/models.

I love being an exhibitionist. I have a deeply spiritual life. I believe sex is divine and God love's how I express this gift. I want to help others feel as I do enjoying the experience of the flesh while keeping the innocence of spirit. I dream of serving others and being free doing what I love.

The goal is to get an understanding of these industries and to meet anyone who might help me understand how I can contribute. Contact me at Rex@rexharley.com

Polyphasic sleep schedule shelved

I'm taking a break from the polyphasic sleep schedules. For whatever reason, I haven't been able to relax enough to fall asleep during my naps. As a result, I'm not getting enough REM time. Now I know what "tired" really feels like.

On the other hand, I know that I can get some extra hours of wake time several times per week. The key is shaking up the schedule to see what actually works. These past few days have been very useful in finding what I'm capable of.

With luck, my next post will be about what skills I have as an employee. I'd ask everyone who reads this entry to think about what jobs might be a good match for my skills. I'd like to make a switch before burning out.

Polyphasic Sleep

I've recently mentioned on Twitter and Face Book that I'm investigating a polyphasic sleeping pattern. I was inspired by this site: dustincurtis.com/sleep.html which lead me to this site: www.stevepavlina.com/blog/2005/10/polyphasic-sleep/ which inspired me further.

It appealed to me to have some more hours in the day - especially if I was no worse for the wear. So far, it's been fun. My life is feeling less stressed because I have a few hours that are like gifts. They're free since I would not have them without a different sleeping schedule, so I can use them however I choose and not feel like I'm "wasting time." I don't feel any rush to complete anything during this time and it passes at a very relaxing pace.

I'm currently sleeping 4.5 hours per night. Then at 12, 5, and 10 I take a nap for 20 to 30 minutes. As I am about to go to sleep for the fourth time for only four and a half hours, I am wondering if three hours would work. I refuse to use this time to do more of the same. I'm not trying to get more done in a day. I'm trying to find the time to eliminate things from my schedule that don't support me. For the first time, I feel like I can catch up enough to find the life that I want to live. I'll try to explain that better in the future.

Even better, I can now have time to spend with my masturbation practice. :)

I'll use this blog entry to track the actual sleep times as close as I'm able to track them. Sometimes I forget to write the time down. Sometimes I need to shift the schedule because of other activities.
Beginning August 13 2009
Day 1 - 13 | 3:30 AM-8:00, 12:00 PM, 5:00 PM, 10:00 PM
Day 2 - 14 | 2:30AM-7:00, 2:00 PM (shifted), 5:00 PM, 10:00 PM
Day 3 - 15 | 2:30AM-7:00, 1:00 PM (shifted), 5:00 PM, 11:00 PM (Shifted)
Day 4 - 15 | 2:30AM-7:00...

Relax. Right now, everything is OK just the way it is

How can I believe that everything is going to be alright?

• I believe the underlying principle that brought life into existence will continue.
• While I believe in free will, I also believe that there is a divine plan for my life - for everyone's life.
• I believe we are naturally drawn to our path, but that ego leads us off the path. I feel driven by ego and off the path.
• I believe the only part of myself that feels threatened by life is my ego. It's what feels disrespected in traffic. It is what responds to anger with anger.
• I believe I can take it down a notch. Everything is not critical. Everything is OK just the way it is. Life is a transition. Nothing remains the same.

Up until this point, my life has felt heavy. Life has felt jagged and unsafe - compared to having all my needs met as a child. I have abhorred expressing emotion, but the only emotions I can suppress are happy ones. So I often experience fear, anger and sadness.
I want to believe this is not my natural state, but that it is something I can release to uncover myself. I want to believe that I can experience life and feel safe and express joy.

• I am not my thoughts. I am not my ego.
• Only my ego feels overwhelmed.
• Only my ego feels threatened.
• Only my ego feels disrespected.
• Only my ego feels fear.
• Only my ego feels anger.

My primary concern is letting go of this stress and knowing that everything is OK just the way it is.
Just because everything is OK doesn't mean that I have to stop. I continue stepping forward and with each step, it's still OK.
Step 1: Learn to be comfortable expressing happiness and excitement.

June Insights

• I am a follower, not a leader.
• I don't want to hide that I am a nudist and exhibitionist.
• I am looking for the freedom to act instead of trying to motivate myself.
• Live life as if utopia was already here.
• I want to be part of a close knit extended family exploring the universe.
• I can do software. I can do sex. I can continue my education forever. I can teach others what I've learned. I can provide a space and place for people to grow.
• Listen to the quiet part of yourself that knows.
• Inner Duality: Get off your own back. Stop trying to motivate yourself by harassing yourself with your thoughts. Who are you talking to? The one who is speaking. There is only one of you. Choose to act or not to act, but respect your own decision.
• I am aware of an abundant universe that provides for all my needs. I intuitively know how to tap that abundance. I'm continuously taping the universal abundance so that I can thrive and prosper and help others.
• I've developed the habit of seeing time as a limited resource. There are only so many hours in a day. I tend to forget that time is a continuous flow. There's another delivery tomorrow.
• Instead of arguing with myself, make a choice.
• I create my own state of mind. Take the time to learn how this works.
• Through the power of faith, I am able to stop resisting and surrender to the flow of life.
• We live in a never ending, continuously generated flow of time. We are free to experience it however we choose. There is no such thing as "spending time," because time is NOT a finite resource.
• I heard this in church: Nothing real can be threatened. Nothing unreal exists.
• Faith is not about religion, but about the nature of existence. Atheists have faith that God does not exist. I have faith that more will be revealed, that whatever I learn will grow my faith and not destroy it.
• I'm OK just the way I am. I can trust myself.
• I forget myself today as I embrace my freedom and exercise my faith to accept whatever happens and flow with life.
• I can trust myself to take down my defenses and relax. I'm OK the way I am.
• When I "forget myself," I step forward past my thoughts to the front of my body. Usually there is a separation of thoughts between my world and me. When I forget myself - I move past that - I step forward and trust myself to be myself.