Expressing Rex Harley's Potential: Escort?

Here are what I see as being some of my strengths: Reflecting, intuiting, understanding, playing, experimenting, trying, exploring, accepting, figuring it out, believing, trusting, following, obeying, sorting and grouping, scanning, writing, typing, breathing, masturbating, hugging, holding.I like to tinker and explore. I like to understand, to figure things out. I like to explore with others. I am sexually powerful. I am worthy of respect. I like to go within. I like to take my time and fully digest new knowledge. I recognize that there is a more fundamental reality underlying our thoughts about it. The framework is not reality, but only describes it.

How can I express these strengths in my life more fully? Since these are the things that I see as being my strengths, how do I use them to prosper?

I am considering offering my services as an escort. I would like to do some sexological bodywork, but I don't have certified training in massage. Escorting seems like a nice way to go until I can "officially" advertise as a masseur. Here's the text of an ad that I'm considering:

Are you looking for an escort? Rex Harley is available to you as an escort. He has a healing and affirming presence. He is an excellent listener. He is sympathetic, loving and supportive. Rex finds fulfillment in helping you meet your needs and can be relied on for the strictest confidentiality.

Rex charges $80 per hour with an extra $20 for outcalls. There is no charge if you are not completely satisfied.

Any suggestions and recommendations would be greatly appreciated. I want to serve others with my most authentic skills. What do you think?

Living through the body

The following post is a direct result of this morning's Orgasmic Yoga practice: http://adultblog.rexharley.com/2011/09/orgasmic-relaxation.html

On to another esoteric subject. I see some conflict in my thinking. Today, I was very present during my Orgasmic Yoga practice - to the point where I forgot myself. There was only pleasure. This seems to contradict the enjoyable times where I've felt very much into my body - and not in my head. These are two (or three) different things.

I would love to feel so present in the moment that I forgot myself - so that I can simply be myself without filtering. I also enjoy feeling present in my body as my body, having a distinct sensation of being a physical sexual body. But this is chasing a memory of erotic anticipation I once had.

In fact, I do not believe myself to be this body. I identify with the conscious awareness that experiences this body and other bodies as well. I Am life itself: Living this body, breathing this body, and experiencing myself through this body. I am not my thoughts. I am not my fears.

Sacred Eros

I'm trying to consolidate some menu topics. Here are links to entries regarding Sacred Eroticism:

Sacred Intimate

• What is a Sacred Intimate?
• How can I (Rex Harley) be a Sacred Intimate?

Orgasmic Yoga

• What is Orgasmic Yoga?
• My Orgasmic Yoga Practice 
• Past Orgasmic Yoga Sessions

Erotic Temple

• Photos of my Erotic Temple

Silence

The outer circle of the Three Circles Ritual is called Silence. I went to three circles last night and intentionally stayed in the outer circle. This was difficult for me. I use this circle to hold space for the men in the other two circles. There are things to learn in this circle that you can't experience in the others.

Sitting in the outer circle allowed me to see the perfection of everything that was happening. I would drift into judgment and then see that it was perfect exactly the way it was. It was also nice to see that the ritual was working just fine without me being in the middle of it. I could see that if I wasn't there, that they would have done fine without me.

Being in the outer circle, I also acted as the voyeur, charging everyone's inner exhibitionist. I often get a charge watching someone doing something and then expressing that through breath or through my expression. I tried to observe the entire ritual, trying to emulate God's perspective - looking at all the men perfectly loving themselves and learning how to interact more deeply and with more presence. Our culture has neutered us, and the group of men in front of me were healing from that - rediscovering their animal maleness and learning how to embrace it completely. It was among the most beautiful things I have ever seen.

Finally, sitting consciously in the circle of Silence, I discovered a new freedom. I recognized that I was uncomfortable, afraid that I would be judged by not participating (even though I was). In that, I found the freedom of being able to sit and witness and the perfectness of doing that. I discovered anything I could do would be perfect. Anything I didn't do was perfect. Together at that time, we were all perfectly complete and also overcoming our erotic wounds and also learning new ways of being – a unity in contradictions, completely perfect.

How can I be a Sacred Intimate?

I'm trying to understand what I mean when I say I'm a Sacred Intimate and how it represents a profession.

My Mission is to lead people to healing, to contribute to the healing of a suffering world, to express myself fully and completely as a loving and caring man, and to explore the union and balance of sexuality and spirituality.

My vision is to be an instrument of God's healing love, to embrace and grow God's use of my body temple, and to use all of my skills to teach that sex is a physical manifestation of the spiritual principle of Love.


When I think of being a Sacred Intimate, I envision being a sex worker. There's much more to it than that, but sex is a biological need that many men have difficulty meeting for various reasons. I feel I can help men lead more fulfilling lives by serving in the sacred capacity of helping them meet this need.

There's also a healing capacity that goes with this. I still don't understand my healing capacity. My appreciation of sex comes from a very innocent place. For me, all sex is play. I want to help other men to find the ability to play sexually. Come to my playroom and let's explore each other. Let's play pretend. Share some of the things you like to do but are not completely comfortable with or are ashamed of and let me affirm your desires.

How else do I manifest as a Sacred Intimate? I have often mirrored people when we have sex. I'm receptive to their desires and am attentive to subtle and obvious ques. I like to let my partner lead me into their world and my sexual experience expands as a result. I love exploring sex this way.

I practice Orgasmic Yoga most mornings. Sometimes someone joins me. I build my erotic energy and release it into my day, or send healing energy to someone, or experience God, or use it to manifest my prayers. I release creative energy into the world to contribute to its healing. In a world that seems fixated on celebrating violence, I celebrate Love.

I want to make pornographic movies that demonstrate sexual freedom that others can use for validation of their own desires. I want people to see me freely and lovingly enjoy my body sexually and think to themselves "Oh, if he can do it, then so can I."

I can only lead people to healing who are ready to be healed. Many of us identify so strongly with our pain that we're not ready for healing. For those, I want to hold lovingly close to my heart. I want to love them until they can love themselves.

So I need some containers for packaging these services. I can work one on one. I can lead small groups. I can reach larger groups via various media. I feel the desire to write on various topics - spiritual and sexual. This and pornography offer me the ability to reach the most people. Zig Ziglar said that the secret to getting what you want is to help enough other people to get what they want. If I can begin satisfying these needs for sacred sexuality, then the money to support my work will become available. We have a deep need in this society, so I have plenty of work to keep me busy.

On Consciousness

I have a new ADULT blog entry about using the Aneros to explore anal pleasure for men who don't recognize anal stimulation as pleasurable: Aneros Play

This is from a journal entry dated Monday August 8, 2011 - on a flight to attend Erotic Temple at Wildwood:

I was reflecting on trying to explain my perspective on being, and how words either are hard to come by or are completely misleading.

I begin by noticing that everything I perceive, my entire experience of reality happens within this body. That conjures the image of a miniature person sitting inside the brain watching a big screen TV. That's obviously not the case, not even figuratively.

Somehow my experience is the perceiving, and maybe I am this perceiving. After the perception, the experience produces thoughts that I perceive. From theses thoughts, I build an intellectual understanding of the world.

But I am not my understanding, I am the perceiving. I am not my identity, the story I believe about who I am. My consciousness comes and goes and changes from day to day, but I remain unchanged.

I am not my experience, but the experiencing of my experience.

I always need to make a leap at this point. As I have the capacity to perceive, everything in the universe has the same potential. I eat food. The food is incorporated into my body and brain. Does it then gain the ability to perceive or has it always had this ability? Old particles/molecules from my body/brain return to the world. Everything is dynamic and changes, but everything is alive because God is omnipresent - whatever that means to you.

We were never kicked out of the Garden of Eden. We're still there, we just can't perceive it easily with thinking in the way. I am the part of the universe perceiving itself. I am God perceiving God in all the forms I can take. Words fall short - as always.

Death

First off, I've posted a request to my adult blog to engage in some self pleasuring: Love From Within

Next up, I was recently at an intensive focused on the erotic and the sacred. During that week, I considered a statement that I would want communicated after I died. The following is what I came up with:

Your suffering is optional. You may not know this when you are suffering, but it is true. Your pain is real, but suffering is not.

I have come to believe that the universe is loving. I call that love "God." I experience life and grow from that experience, painful or pleasurable. Pain sometimes comes from God, but it coms from a place of love.

Take care of your own consciousness. Focus on what is good and beautiful, and it will grow. Question your negative thoughts and they lose their power. All thought falls short of Truth and is a lie - even this thought. Grow the beauty within you until it spills out and beautifies the world. That's how it works.